Stats!

Height: 5'1''

CW: 113 lbs(fuck, minor setback)

HW: 119 lbs

GW1: 105 lbs

GW2: 100 lbs

UG: 90 lbs

Name: Aniela Those

Believe me, I'm lying.

I'm sort of energized today...

Eager in my new experiment.

You always hear girls, "Anyone like to join me on a one week fast?" etc, but never for a one week restriction.....

It never crosses their minds...

I, however, have never been average.

So, when this dainty little thought pranced across my mind, as I contemplated the day ahead.... (mainly contemplating the possibility of a binge)

And I snapped.

I was just done. Just like that.

I was so sick of the goddamn cycle.....

Because IT was controlling me.

Not anymore.

My mind is set on my little game....

Now, what were to happen if I were to restrict for a month?

Oh so curiously?

I really want to know.

Bottom line.

But in other news....

My birthday's coming up.

That oh-so glorious time of year no one bothers to care about.

Yessir, that's it.

This year, I was looking to have some sort of party....

With a few close friends...

But lately my lard ass "supposed friend" (really, she's fat) has been starting so much drama, I'm just sick of it!

Really, if I wanted to see pissed off fat people's chins wiggle off into oblivion, the ferocity of their anger sending ripples in their pools of fat across their skin, I'd go to the mall and steal someone's Chick-fil-a.

That, however, is not the case.

But whatever.

I'm just looking forward to getting drunk off my ass... (which won't be that hard on a near empty stomach) and then puking up whatever was there=)

Wow, I think I just summed up my whole birthday right there.

Huh.

I have so much work to do... I've been slacking SO much lately.....

Off to go do that then.

~Aniela

In:

-1 cup salad w/ mustard and hot sauce

-amino acid capsule

-turmeric capsule (as an appetite supressant)

Spur of the Moment

I do alot of things like that.

Just, out of the blue.

I'm not exactly sure why.

Maybe it's to fill some part of me. A part unsatisfied by everyday life. Perhaps the part that drives me to starve myself... Thin... Thinner... Thinnest....

When it comes right down to it, I don't know alot of things.

I guess I could be considered extremely smart, but in this one matter....

I am oh so stupid. (Tried to think of a fancy word for stupid... and failed.)

What exactly drives a person to destroy themselves in such a manner?

This is something I want to know, and aim to explore with this blog.

One question,

"WHY?"

The how goes with it after the fact.

So here I am.

~Aniela